Day 18 and 19 I'm detecting a pattern...

of me missing a day and having to play catch up with my blog post. Someone suggested just calling them Post # instead of Day # then I would never be behind. Hmmmm, might have to think about that.
So here we go for days (post) 18 and 19.

Day 18-Something you regret 


Maybe this topic is what kept me from posting yesterday.  I don't know about you but I have way too many regrets and putting them down in print or even just thinking about them isn't a real upper if you know what I mean.  First off I have some very personal regrets that I won't put in print. I have made some real stupid mistakes in my life. I have learned from them (took me a while but I learned) and have repented of them so they are in the past.


I have daily regrets, you know the type...I didn't spend enough quality time with the kids, I didn't get that last load of laundry done. Darn it that project is still sitting in the drawer.  Those type of ongoing regrets that I have to constantly work on.


The one big regret I do have, that I will admit to on my blog is not going to college. I regret that almost on a daily basis. I didn't put much effort into high school. I went because it was required and that is where my social life was. I'm not sure why I regret this because I would still have chosen to be a stay-at-home mom. I guess just knowing it was something I should have put more effort into and I didn't and I should have set that example for my own kids and I didn't.
College wasn't highly encouraged in the house I lived in while I was in high school.  My dad was adamant about college but at this point my parents were divorced and he didn't have much influence over my life.  My step-dad was anti college. He owned a construction company and worked hard physical labor every day of his life. He was of the opinion that people who went to college to get an office job were lazy. Then there was the fact that my sister and my sister-in-law had both gone one year and then got married and never went back. I figured that would happen to me too so why waste the money.
Yeah I had a bunch of excuses but at the time it was truly how I felt. 
By time I did get married I could have graduated from college or been pretty darn close.  I think about going all the time but it would take me two years just to get my Math and English skills up to college level so I could actually take college classes. And then there is the fact that I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up so I don't even know what type of courses I would take.
I am so proud of my kids that have/are going to college. They each have their own struggles with it but they are at least making the effort. Something their mom never had the guts to do. So I live with regret.


Day 19-Something you miss


Well this one is easy and obvious. I miss my family that live out of state. Right now that includes two of my sons, my daughter-in-law and my two grandbabies. In month and a half Catherine will be back at school and I will be missing her too. 

 It cracked me up watching all the kids (and grandkids) huddle around watching Youtube videos together. They love to show each other funny, stupid things from the internet and they laugh and laugh and laugh.Having kids of all ages is so much fun. I really enjoy watching them interact and build a relationship with each other.

 All of us together. That doesn't happen very often now that the kids are grown but when it does we sure try to make the best of it.

I predict that some day Grant will be evening out the height on the other end. :)